Autumn started calling me so I walked in our room to get her up from nap.
She starts going “I woke up from my nap, so I get up now.”
“haha, yeah that’s a good idea.”
“yeah.” – very self-assured.
“Ok, well, are you hungry or thirsty? Can I get you something?”
“Yeah, some ‘boocha.”
How can moments like this make me so happy? Some days she wakes up in a *horrid* mood. And then other’s, she’s hilarious and chill. It’s amazing to me how much joy I can have from the above conversation.
Then she curled up in my lap with her sippy ‘o ‘Boocha, and we read ‘Goodnight Dragons,’ one of our favorite books. She told me which dragons were the mommy, daddy, baby, and sister. And I can’t believe how wonderful it all is.
Can’t believe I *get* to have times like this.
Morgan (Loves to) Reid
The day we decided to sell our house was also the day Nate started listening to the audio version of The 5 Love Languages. He listened to the 1st chapter and told me he thought we should listen to it together.
Chapter 1: Words of Affirmation – what I thought was my love language. The chapter was good, but not all that helpful: Nate was already pretty much doing the things the author had suggested. Which was kind of disheartening – “Hmm, ok. Well, maybe he needs to use more detail or something?” To be honest, even the suggested list of things for Nathan to try at the end of the chapter made me feel a solid “meh.”
“Ok, well let’s skip to your love language now,” I said.
“No, why don’t we just go all the way through.”
Mmkay. I agreed.
Yeah, by the end of Chapter 2: Quality Time, I was was giddy.Read More»
1st blog post in forever! Man, it felt so good to see the admin dashboard on my screen again.
Well – the reason I’ve been so absent these past few months is the same reason I was this time last year . . . we moved. . . . (again).
We’re almost positive the ringing in our ears is caused by the screeching halt of our ‘moving’ gears. We’re crazy spent.
I so miss the beauty and the bigness of those 5 acres. It was a gorgeous piece of land. While I don’t want to get into everything on a public forum, I’ll share the more personal reasons we decided to head back to ATX. It wasn’t financial (renting in Austin’s a bit more expensive than owning in a county over), and it wasn’t that we didn’t like homesteading – we were mostly dabbling, but I found I did enjoy it.Read More»
I’m experiencing quite a bit of difficulty with something that didn’t used to be a problem: while I enjoy “doing” things, I really don’t enjoy just “being.” The problem is, “being” jives a lot better with motherhood than “doing.”
It’s probably healthier to enjoy, meander, and observe, but I’d rather learn, produce, and accomplish. There’s a satisfying rush that comes with “finishing” (“I made/did this!”) and having something to show for my time makes me feel better about myself, and how people see me.
If only there weren’t always so much more to be “doing” or I didn’t feel the pressure to learn a lot about a lot of things *right now*. It’s like I feel really behind and there’s an urgency to acquire this or that skill, implement that practice, expound on that thought, and create that thing.
Contrasting this with simply enjoying “being”, and I might find satisfaction in walking, instead of reaching the end of the walk, or in putting a line through “take a 3 mile walk.” That would be so great, because honestly, unless I’m engaged in conversation, I hate the “walk” part – But I want to find satisfaction in walking and not care so much about getting to the destination (even with a toddler).
This recent pull to transition from “doing” to “being” has me kind of stumped. *But how?! How do I do that? How do I manufacture feelings and completely shift my mindset? Argh!*
Then I remembered a book I read a couple years ago that might really help me now that I’m ready to change lanes and slow down. While, I read through it pretty quickly and it resonated very much with my “small world” heart (I’m very home-oriented and domestic in nature), I so was fixated on what my other mom friends were doing and able to accomplish during this season, that I wasn’t ready to take a backseat to all the “fun”. 2 years later, I’m tired and worn out and would like to try implementing his ideas and blogging about the experience as a way to keep me on track and document the journey.
It’s called Living into Focus by Arthur Boers and if I remember correctly, his first “focus practice” was to go on a walk. : )
Morgan (loves to) Reid
Taken from a recent facebook post:
Nathan and I have been scratching our heads trying to figure out how I can be an extrovert who has a hard time being around more than a handful of people. (I like to say that I’m a “Mezzo-Extrovert” since I hate being alone for more than an hour and love being in small groups).
Finding out about HSP has shed light in a lot of ways (my empathy levels; need to leave a gathering even though I’m dying to stay) and helped me to feel better about cutting myself some slack in other ways (spacing our kids out further than I originally wanted; waiting until they’re older to start being a Foster parent.)
Cheers to self-discovery! I’m not a mess: I have super powers I haven’t learned how to harness yet ( :
Morgan (loves to) Reid