Rough Sketch Ideals
- At November 28, 2016
- By Morgan Reid
- In Autumn, Reflections
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10 mintues after running through my usual list of ideas and concerns while laying in bed this a.m., I finally felt like it was acceptable to open my eyes. Looking to see if Nate was still in the room and were Autumn was lying – both were found and both I found amusing: We currently sleep on 5 felted wool layers on the floor. She was laying at the corner with one arm extended onto the to floor and one foot propped-up against the opposite leg: full cheeks, messy puffballs, super cute. Nate was directly underneath her which is also amusing. : )
My mind went back to baby’s positioning in my womb and my concerns about it, even at only 27 weeks. Autumn was double footling breech, so this is a biggy for me.
I start taking those concerns to Him even though it feels “off.” Much like I’m a dud of a daughter who mostly just disappoints while choosing her own thing, except when I come back asking for something I need.
Ouch.
It’s unfamiliar territory, truly. I rarely felt like I disappointed my earthly (adoptive, grand)parents – they were thrilled that I tended to follow the rules, went to church, got good grades, and showed no interest in parties, substance abuse, or the “wrong crowd.” It was another story with my bio mom – before age 13 I can’t say I felt she saw me much at all, one of the many downsides to being a mother with a drug addiction.
Alright, where was I?
Oh yeah, being a screw up daughter (or at least feeling that way. It’s a weird dynamic having 3 parents influencing your idea of God and how you relate to Him). It’s not that I can’t have another c-section – yes, a healthy mom and healthy baby are my highest request – but as a girl strongly tied to her ideals, oh how badly I want this to be a smooth transition for my family, for Autumn.
So I focus on praying for that instead – not for a certain type of birth, or even what the transition should look like according to me (or the books and articles I’ve read), but really simply — for grace.
Read More»Traveling between Kingdoms
- At November 12, 2016
- By Morgan Reid
- In Ministry, Motherhood, Ordinary Radical
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The life I want is cushy.
Creature comforts;
Children who love their life.
A hubby who is well satisfied.
For myself to be thriving.
For others, I’d be there helping and alleviating their hurt, but it wouldn’t get me emotionally.
I’d do things requiring effort, knowledge, and stretching – but it’d be a pretty picture: not overwhelming, went smoothly overall, and why yes, quite literally there’d be a nice picture taken so I could document the moment and keep it close.
I think all that would be my mission statement.
But what sucks is that my life’s desire is completely unmatched to reality.
Dear Autumn: As much as I can have
- At April 13, 2015
- By Morgan Reid
- In Autumn
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My last facebook status:
“Autumn’s been doing this thing where, while nursing, she loops her little arm around my neck, uses her chubby hand to pull my head to hers, and leaves her arm there contentedly. I’m starting to think it’s her happy place.
Not the most comfortable position for me, but I melt every. time.”
This has been so incredibly sweet. If I tried to put words to how it makes me feel, they’d fall embarrassingly short. I’m picturing those 90’s shows where – back when people wrote each other with pen and paper – the guy would be at this desk, crumbled paper all around, earnestly trying to get his feelings out. I’m surrounded my theoretical crumbled paper.
Read More»Mickey Mouse Puffs!
- At March 07, 2015
- By Morgan Reid
- In Autumn
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I’ve been *dying* for Autumn to have enough hair to play with.
Unfortunately, the high chair was the only place I could trap her get her still enough for a picture.
Morgan (loves to) Reid
Our Baby Wearing Pics!
- At February 15, 2015
- By Morgan Reid
- In Autumn, Motherhood
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From http://www.shawnanovella.com/morgan-wearing-autumn/
I met Shawna at a Tiny House presentation she was giving and let me tell you, she is one AWESOME lady. I’ve learned so much from her as a perfessional and a person.
These are some photos she took of Autumn and I when Autumn was about 9 or 10 months old.
Streams of Goodness
- At December 04, 2014
- By Morgan Reid
- In Autumn
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Today Autumn leaned in about 10 times for kisses.
It was magical and I soaked up every bit of it 🙂
xoxo
MLTR
beds n littles: soaking this in
- At November 15, 2014
- By Morgan Reid
- In Quotes
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“One thing I want to work on and get great at is having great beds for the kids. When they look back on their childhood, I want them to remember climbing into a clean, warm, comfy bed – positively exhausted by all our living and loving.” – Jessica Connolly
Dear Autumn: In a Glance
- At November 11, 2014
- By Morgan Reid
- In Autumn, Reflections
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Yesterday, I sat down to rock and nurse you, thankful for the reprieve from your fussing for a minute. Feeling a little stressed out, I habitually started stroking your hair thought about all that was on my plate: how we still had to go grocery shopping before 8 p.m.; your dad wasn’t feeling well in the next room, but I really needed his help; dinner had to be made, and you had yet to nap even with me trying periodically to get you down.
*Sigh* A lot.
But then I pictured my younger, teen self getting to glimpse this moment somehow. What would she see? What would she think?
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